18 years prior to the ODA interview of Inspector Javier T.
(Part 1 of 3 compilations)
Missing You Missing Me
From Juan Del Valle Juan
To Pahn Tin
April 18, 2008
To Pahn Tin
April 18, 2008
Pahn, My Love,
This empty and unpainted room. The silence. They're nothing. These are nothing I couldn't endure. But give me a second to realize
you are not here with me, that I could not see you if I wanted to and I shiver. I struggle to endure, I do not know how long I can. As soon as
I found I could, here I am writing to you.
Pahn.
I miss you. I really really miss you.
There
is no regret for every pandesal I stole, no regret that I was captured by
those two dozen Tanods, and no pain after they beat me up. After 24 fists did I
fall and after 24 boot stomps I still rose. But this longing for you and this
holding on to the memories of our stolen moments, bring me down faster and
longer than the two dozen Tanods( with their 24 fists and 24 stomps). You are
the only reason I regret my life as a Pandesal thief. I should have listened to you. Forgive me.
Now all I is your graduation picture. And a pillow
Now all I is your graduation picture. And a pillow
But Enough
of pain and regret. Enough. I do not want you to
worry, for it is not your worried look that I cherish the most, it is your dimpled
smile.
Let
me tell you three things to smile about
1. I am getting out of this prison, that much is certain.
2.
This cylindrical prison is one of the
three prisons of B-- -City, Also called as the Pit, it is the most unbelievable prison built downwards much like a mine, each floor from the
highest to the lowest segregates the criminals by how severe or light their
crimes are. The lower the floor, the more heinous the crime.
The first floor(the highest of the three) houses common
thieves and other thieves of higher profile.
To maintain goodwill with big time prisoners (for the rich get out sooner or
later). I believe that to solve this, they improved "accommodations"
for the first floor. So here I am with internet access (as is my right but
with no social networking), with clean comfort rooms and balanced meals and
pampered and physically safe co-prisoners.
But
people here are boring: common thieves, guards,
rich prisoners. Some are too comfortable to be here. I can't blame them they are being fed for free. And then there are others who try so hard to live as they were when they were outside.
There are rumours of a secret fourth floor. Maybe the people there are less predictable.
There are rumours of a secret fourth floor. Maybe the people there are less predictable.
There
is, however, one person here on my own floor who is different from the rest.
And already I consider him a friend.
3. That person is not a fellow prisoner but a young
officer about my age. He was assigned to this prison the same day that I
"checked" in. And while our friendship is still limited to four conversations. I know he and I are going to be good friends. our conversations started when he asked me about your picture. He is SPO1 Javier T.
I
will get out. Please smile for me Pahn, smile for us.
Know
that You are my Dream, my panaginip when I sleep and my pangarap I wake. I will
serve my penance . I will get out of this prison. Wait for me Pahn, I love you.
Your only one,
Juan Del Valle Juan
From Pahn
Tin
to Juan Del
Valle Juan
April 18, 2008
My One and Only,
Juan,
my Juan, I am smiling. I often wonder
about this effect you have on me. Just awhile ago, there was only grief, only
sadness. Now, I am brimming with joy.
And its only because of your words. What more if... Yes Juan, I will
wait for you.
As
of now, it is only words that connect us. Let me use more, hoping that with
merely words I cold relive all the sensations I know we will regain from each
other.
-My
long hair, your hands, your longer hair.
I miss the way your hands softly move on my hair, untangling it. And how with
the wooden comb you gave me(I still have it), I untangle yours. I hope they did
not cut your hair.
-my
arms, my large arms that you actually liked! and your powerful arms. How I long
to have your head pillowed on my arms
once again. And with my arms tiring, my own head pillows in your own arms. Do
your remember how deep and long our sleep was despite that changing of pillows?
-above
all, its your dark eyes. Remember I told you that I sometimes fear them? Its as
if your eyes enter my soul without knocking. Sometimes mocking, other times probing. But just a blink and
your eyes smile and speak of compassion, of childlike wonder even. I will not
tire looking at your eyes, wondering what they mean.
-of
course, there's your six pandesals that
you so baked unto your abdomen, how I desire to stroke them again trailing
down-
I
too should stop this, lest I be accused of pornography ( it is good Friday :) )
More
importantly
I
should not leave our love to the mercy of poetry. I remember the sad lives of poets.
.
Oh Juan, get out of that prison and free our love.
Oh Juan, get out of that prison and free our love.
Forever yours,
Pahn Tin
Pahn Tene to Juan Del Valle
Juan
April 18, 2008
My one and only,
I
cannot help but write, do write to me once you can my love. Also I am happy
that you have found a friend. Friends are important, even Killua's father said
so (yes I went back to watching our favorite anime, lets watch it again together when you get
back).
Tell me more about this interesting friend of
yours. Speak to me about your friend Javier T.
Forever yours,
Pahn Tene
Pah Tene to Juan Del
Valle Juan
April
19, 2008
My one and only,
Please
do not, for any reason go down the lower levels of The Pit. Before he went
abroad, remember what your master told you about that place. He was not even himself when he talked about it. Promise me Juan, do not go down from the first floor. I love you very
much.
Yours Forever,
Pahn Tin
From Chief
Inspector Parr Lak
to SPO1
Javier T.
April
19, 2008
Confidential
Officer Javier T,
I
congratulate you for completing your police training at the top of your class.
Here is also a belated congratulations for having finished your degrees in
criminal psychology and forensic science magna cum laude for both. No doubt,
these are impressive achievements. But like all trophies, you need a place (of
equal grandeur) to put them.
Your
final test. Perhaps you are wondering. The reason we assigned you in The Pit is
for you to ascertain our suspicions, grave as they are and cement your
achievements, great as they are. Now two
years ago, there was a series of murders in the level three basement of that
prison. They were never solved.
As
you might know already, an inmate was murdered two weeks before you arrived and then our own Investigator followed three days after. you will find out that death of our very own Inspector Aby W. and the ones before him were all due to an extreme trauma from a blunt object - probably an arnis or a pipe. Perhaps you now know our heavier motive for assigning you this case.
Even after Aby W's thorough cross examinations
and investigations there still is no evidence that the murderer resides on any of the floors. If you have reason to believe that he/she is elsewhere on that prison, report to me first.
Employ
any legal means necessary. And remember everyone is expecting great and speedy
results from your investigation.
Sincerely,
Parr Lak
Chief Inspector
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